Like a Train Wreck

Tonight I received some news that hit me like a train wreck. I discovered that the parents of the kids that I refer to as "my little cousins" have been separated for one week. What was shocking was that I found out from the four year old. But even more so, I never imagined that happening.

I always knew his father wasn't a good father. He wasn't into it. He never wanted children. But Alden came along unexpectedly. Then Kaya. Sure, he didn't want children... but whatever happened to living up to your responsibilities? It's not like blowing off a test or a class... it's two small, extremely precious, bright lives.

The effects of an absent, uninterested father could already be seen on Alden. He clearly craved that male bond and affection. He quickly bonded with my dad ("Uncle E"), Ray ("Uncle Ray") and now Will ("Uncle Will" or sometimes "Squeaky Mouse"). Now he will have a father who is absent, but completely.

"My" kids, Alden and Kaya


I love these kids like they were my own. I don't want to see something so negative happen to them so soon. Which I guess would explain why I'm so upset. I'm also really angry. He was already so absent, what the hell gives him the right to completely exit? Yeah, sure there are those who will say "he has the right to live his own life." To that I say: he shouldn't have had children. And if they say "it wasn't planned" I say so what? It takes two people to make a baby. So grow up and take a little responsibility.

I guess that's the outlook that makes it clear that I definitely want a family of my own :-p I know those who are too selfish for children. Hey, if you don't want children, no problem. Just don't have any.